Nolan turned 2 yesterday. Wait, there is no way that could be true. I don't believe it. My baby, the little boy that not too long ago needed me to do everything for him, turned two. What a bittersweet day. He is such an independent creature now. He wants to "help" w/ everything now. My heart has grown larger than I ever imagined it could. I have so much love for him that there will never be enough words to describe it.
He has taught me so much in these past two years. My amazing little man made me into a mother and for that, there will always be a bond that no one will ever be able to duplicate. He has taught me to be kind, loving and patient. He has taught me how to cherish the time that we have today because tomorrow he will be even more grown up.
And most of all, the most important thing in my life...God used my little boy to bring me to my Savior. And for that I am eternally grateful. Before Nolan I was okay cruising through life on my own terms. I was doing fine, things were working out just fine. And then, one look at Nolan laying in his crib in the NICU and knowing there was nothing I could do to fix him. Only God. I remember praying constantly throughout the day for 11 days for peace and assurance. God granted me that and so much more. My heart started to open. I began to see my need for a real Savior. I needed God all the time, not just in good time or not just in bad times. I needed God, the real God, not just the one that sounds good to me the way I want Him to be. I struggled w/ this need for many months after Nolan was born. I realized my need, but was still too selfish to give up my old ways. Thankfully, God gave me another amazing man to help me realize there is no life w/out Christ. So thank you God, for my awesome husband and beautiful baby boy. They will never know how much they are worth to me.
Wow, I didn't expect to write out my story but there it is (must be God working again)!
Back to my little man, he is getting so big. We had a doctor's appointment today. He did well except for the terrible shot. :( He meets all of the recommended developmental milestones. The doctor said he looks great. He weighs 26.5lbs and 35 3/4 inches long.
He had a great birthday party and a wonderful birthday. No time to post pictures just yet, will try to get them up later today.
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i had never heard your testimony - thanks for sharing! thanks for the reminder that He can - and does! - use anybody! even, and maybe especially, our little ones:) what a mighty God we serve!
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